24 hours ( you know that feeling)

you know that feeling….

the feeling of knowing that in 24 hours and exactly the same time you usually see them again…all you need is 24 hours to pass and you see them again…now what do you do in that 24 hours? daydream about them. write a letter to them..that you eventually have to redo..and eventually throw away in the trash… oh that feeling that makes your day and ruins your day…sucks because you cant have it both ways….

You know that feeling of when they talk to you and all you could is wish the talk never ends..because you don't want the moment to end.. 

The feeling of knowing that this going to end anytime…anytime the prof walks in..or its time to go class… or time for him to go. He leave you leave..and you go back to that terrible/exciting feeling of waiting for another 24 hours…. 

what do you do in that 24 hours???-------

the feeling of knowing that this is never going to be….the feeling of finding yourself hating him for not doing what you want him to do..but he doesn't have the minumun idea of what you are thinking… or does he?…So who do you  blame for not going the way YOU want it to go..God? Him? her? or the other unknown person. wait? is there unknown person… 

ha there we go again….24 hours passed..and thats all you did.. you thought about them and wondered if they did the same…or even just a little bit…So my question is when does one stop….when does one stop to slowly peel their heart away..when does one stop…stop what? exactly..thats something one cant stop….well at least thats what personally i think, Feel free to agree and disagree at the same time..

Ha. 24 hours lingers around my head like a cloud full love/confusions/patience….

patiently waiting for the cloud to make it up its mind. it can choose to rain, disappear or manifest itself in simplest form…..

24 hours….

24 hours is slowly turning into 4 hours and and in 2 hours…and just when I about tot reach 0 hours…It happens all over again and 24 hours starts again….

Such is life. 

Take my Thoughts to Serious...you'll probably love me.

Okay pause.. your life is so busy huh, so busy you cant pick up the phone and call your "friend" or you brother or that person you care "soo much about".. I hear these words alot, and sometimes i say them myself" lets hang out soon', " i call you later"? and bam it never happens, why do we say this. why do we lie to ourselves and the people we "care about:. Now you tell me how exactly does a friendship work out if one person is always trying to hangout, or spend time with that person or calling, texting.....that person is always going to contact a person who doesn't respond, but he/she can swear up and down that they are really good friends. Sounds like a lie to me...doesn't it?  We all know this A relationship is two way street...this my friend does not exclude friendships.  Honestly world..be honest to yourself.  A relationship is not always updating your "friend"about your life...a friend is suppose to be there at all times, friendships dont a get a vacation....because sometimes your break may way too long and when you get back it might just be too late.. A friendship is not a book you read( a bad book)... you cant just use/talk/be a friend to someone and whenever you feel like it. I mean come on world..get a grip. Good friends are hard to find, som when you find one ..grab on to it.. dont abuse them, dont read them and put them down.. dont...dont.. just dont except them to be there for you when your life is not the way is going. your friends also have feelings too, they are human, they hurt, cry, scream.....and love hard as you..--sometimes too much because they still give a damn about yo punk ass!...

Not as strong as Mother Teresa

Mother teresa was and still is one of the most famous humanitarian of all time.. well at least in my eyes. I dont know much about her life, but the little I know I love and admire...

This weekend i was strolling on twitter..--yes I have a twitter. It gives me something to when I am bored, so anyways on twitter i fallow alot of hippish things, like life and insipirational quotes, fight for women, etc...I just fallow something that has to do with love and saving the world----:). I stumbled on one of mother teresa quote---I definately wondered if mother teresa has a twitter...Maybe her spirit does. Okay back to what i was saying there is a quote that Mother Teresa says "God doesnt put in you/me//us in situation that we cant handle... I just wish he didnt trust me as much. That quote spoke to me like willy wonka chocolate parade---no such thing, i just love chocolate beyond belief. You know sometimes i think that too..that God doesn't put us in situation that we cant handle---and i think..is it this way I am suppose to be handling it. aren't i suppose to be stronger, like pick up my cojonez and go on with life..Ha. Only if life was that easy. There are just times that I am upset at God for putting in me situations that I think i cant handle...or I dont want to handle..but sure enough I am in them and I am wrestling, sweating, and puffing to survive or learn something.  When things are not resolved quickly i get this anger, and sadness. I know that He puts me in situations I cant handle..but sometimes I honestly think its too much....but he knows  best. God is always working in our lives mysteriously, either he is molding our Hot Hunk of man somewhere....somewhere close by, creating new adventures in the future, anything..God is always doing something awesome in our lives, sometimes we catch it, sometimes we dont..but i know one thing..GIVE THANKS TO HE LORD ALWAYS.  If you take a deep breath....(see that was a gift), if you take a deep breath and sit around and dwell in the presence of the Holy One you will see the goodness that he is doing in your life. I realized just because that one thing  you want to work out..at this precise moment its not working out does not mean..other good things are not happening in your life...or it does not mean joy wont come in the morning....

Hold on tighter..have a little more faith..Trust a lil more..

as life gets easier, its gets harder at the same time...but with faith nothing is impossible.